Checking in

Hello

I'm alive, and managing. Caden is doing well. I am almost 30 weeks. I'm now seeing my OB weekly, getting weekly NSTs and BPPs. While I am happy to be so closely monitored, it is hard to schedule work and be overwhelmed. I am trying to just get through each day. Only 7 weeks left! I can do it. Our c-section was scheduled for 37 weeks, April 2nd. I'm not sure that will stick though, my OB is double checking with the perinatologist. He wanted to go 39 weeks. I'm scared and worried. I don't want him to have issues coming to early, but I don't want to go much past 37 either. PLUS I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. I am going to a class tomorrow to learn more about it. Talk about added stress, huh? I miss my Mom and Ana a lot too. Being pregnant, and getting close reminds me of Ana and the end of my pregnancy. I miss her, and I am getting more flashbacks to her birth. It's so hard. BUT, overall this pregnancy has been less stressful than I had imagined while trying to conceive. Ok, that's enough for now. Time to zone out to crap TV.