First ultrasound

Hello!
So after much anxiety, I had my first ultrasound today. We were relieved to see a heartbeat! It's early, so we were trying not to expect to see much, but there was that little flicker. So much relief. The tech was kinda awkward and said they aren't allowed to tell us much, but did say the heart rate was 95 (normal for so early). My husband thought he saw 6 weeks and something when they were measuring the baby. I'd also assume that since we saw a heart beat, we are right on track! He said my OB will call us in 3-5 days (I'd imagine sooner...). Then I'll get my offical due date. I'd assume between April 17th-20th. Fertility friend said April 19th which seems pretty accurate. Ok, offical first pic!!  8/25/14 (my Dad's birthday, extra sweet!)

He passed his first test with flying colors :)
(we feel this baby is a boy so I will probably refer to the baby as a him until we are sure). We're calling him our baby blob!

Here is our pregnancy test pic...Aug. 7th 2014

Grow, baby grow!

Anxiety

Hello.
I'm so anxious. Today I am 5 weeks 5 days pregnant. I feel like...this is all fake, and I'm not really pregnant. I'm worried about everything. I had betas done last week, and my doctor said they looked "terrific". That made me feel better, and at ease for a few days. I have an early ultrasound on Monday. I will be six weeks, 1 day. I know not to expect a heartbeat. I wish I was a few days ahead, then I might see a heartbeat. I am so anxious about it...if I don't see a heartbeat (which would be totally normal) I will be anxious until I do. I will worry that the baby isn't developing. I wish I could just fast forward time. I almost wish I didn't know so many people (online) who have had multiple miscarriages. It probably wouldn't be such a big worry if I didn't know so many. I feel like once I see the heartbeat, I am "really" pregnant. Then I feel like I can tell more people. So far, both sets of parents know, my sister, Ana's (and this baby's) Godmom, my other friend, my best friend and her husband, two people at work and my two supervisors. So...I guess that's a lot! Haha. I had to tell my supervisors because of the ultrasound on Monday. They both said they knew it! They had noticed I was giddy and more upbeat. I want everyone to know. I want this pregnancy to be real. I want it to feel real. Ugh...so many emotions! It's really odd...being pregnant, but not feeling fully pregnant. I wish I could fast forward time. I want to see my OB. I probably won't see her for a bit longer...the ultrasound is at the radiology department. They probably have better equipment there. I'm hoping if we don't see a heartbeat she will let me come in for another early ultrasound in a week or so to ensure the baby is growing. So much anxiety!! It would be so much easier if there was just a heartbeat on Monday! Blah.

Ok, enough whining for now.

Rainbows

Hello there!

WELL, on Aug 7th 2014, we discovered that we are PREGNANT! So excited, overwhelmed, scared, joyful! It's still sinking in. I almost think that having our appointment with Dr. R, and thinking we would need help to get pregnant, relaxed me enough. I really didn't have much hope for this cycle. WOW! I am so happy...it has been a long journey...17 months we've been trying. This baby is very much wanted. So, my due date for now is April 19th. I see Dr. R end of September (so far away!) for an ultrasound, and we'll see what dates that shows. We'll be induced at 37 weeks due to my high risk, so end of March. Another March baby :) That's ok with me!

This will be a very, long journey I'm sure. I have the support of my family, friends, and my online community thebump.com. Those ladies are wonderful. When I told my Mom she kept saying "really?! Ok....really?!! ok..." haha. Toby's parents got all choked up. It was really sweet. I'm only 4weeks 2 days, so really early on. Wish it would go faster. I almost feel like it's so early I'm only "kinda" pregnant. I know, silly. Pregnant is pregnant! Ok, so I have to run off to work.  Also, strangely...we found out we were pregnant with Ana on July 7th, 2012, and with this one August 7th, 2014. Kinda cool.

I also peed on about 5 tests.... :)  I will upload the "offical pee stick picture" once I get it off my phone.